Trust your blinders

Trust. A Nasty little thing. It leaves one in a vulnerable position at times; however, it can be one of the most blissful concepts around.

When one's trust is betrayed, it leaves scars that run deep that can effect the rest of one's life if you were to let it. Absolute blind faith and trust in someone is admirable but foolish. What makes one so worthy of such trust? In truth nothing makes one worthy because it is programed into every person to survive and part of this instinct is to lie, cheat, and manipulate. While that is not to say that every person will break your trust and scar you for life, these compulsions are just stronger in some while not so much in others.

I've become someone who does not trust so easily. While there are a few people in my life that I absolutely adore and trust, it did not come easy. As I grow older, I realize that trust can make and break relationships. As I am surrounded by new situations day after day, it becomes more apparent that the boundaries that we erect to protect what we trust are often a smoke screen to hide the true nature of our reality. Is it naive to think and hope that what is in front of us is in fact the truth and that what our senses allow us to perceive are things we can trust?

The deceitful side of trust is the fact that when you have trust in someone or something, it leaves you blissfully unaware of the harsh reality. Trust are the blinders we wear to protect ourselves from the truth. When something is as clear as day to everyone around execpt to you, it is because of the refusal to see what is really infront of you and the constant denial in which one lives their life. It's great to be able to take everything at face value, but when the proverbial rug is yanked out from underneath you, it leaves shock and a sense of betrayal in its wake. It leaves you suddenly questioning anything and everything, making you suspicious, paranoid, and scared. (que dramatic music).

so where does this leave us?? Really, lets be honest, being aware that trust is a nasty little concept that is ever changing shape and consistency, changes nothing. We know we can't trust certain people, but we either keep them around or we find someone else exactly like them to replace their now vacant space in our lives. Trust is the blinders we wear and the tides that shift throughout our lives.